03 April 2016

16 creative projects for 2016


Continuando este post (devagarinho chegamos lá! ;)) decidi partilhar convosco a lista de projectos criativos que quero concretizar este ano. Foi bom ler os comentários e saber que não estou sozinha nesta luta por mais espaço para criar. A ideia de partilhar estas intenções de projectos não é nova nem minha mas uma técnica de motivação porque cria um sentido de responsabilidade. Vamos ver se funciona? E sem mais demora aqui estão 16 projectos para 2106!

1. Postal de ano novo
2. Livro Um Ano Filipe
3. Drawing a day
4. Calendário 2016
5. Video One Second Um Ano Filipe
6. Filme Avó
7. Talking Walls
8. Rolo Analógico Japão - Londres
9. Family Book of Everyday
10. Prenda R
11. Filme Barriga
12. Um caderno de viagem
13. Livro família Filipe
14. Postais
15. Projecto P
16. Care Package R+C
Extra. Documentar 16 sítios de Londres
Extra. Photobooth

Os riscados são os já completos. Já lá vão 4. E vocês, querem partilhar comigo quais os vossos projectos criativos para este ano?


Following this post (slowly we'll get there;)) I decided to share with you the list of creative projects that I want to achieve this year. It was good to read your comments and learn that I am not alone in this fight for more space to create. The idea of sharing these intentions is neither new nor mine, but a motivation technique because it creates accountability. Let's see if it works? And without further ado here are 16 projects for 2106:

1. New Year's Card
2. Book One Year Filipe
3. Drawing a day
4. 2016 Calendar
5. Video One Second One Year Filipe
6. Film Grandmother
7. Talking Walls
8. Analog film Japan - London
9. Family Book of Everyday
10. Gift R
11. Growing belly film
12. A travel notebook
13. Book Family Filipe
14. Postcards
15. Project P
16. Care Package R + C
Extra. Documenting 16 places in London
Extra. Photobooth

The strikethrough ones are the already completed. Four so far! What about you, do you want to share with me your creative plans for this year?

21 March 2016

my word(s) for 2016

English below

(Eu sei que estou sempre atrasada por aqui... mas estou a aprender a estar bem com isso e não usar a lista de posts acumulados como uma desculpa para procrastinar. Este blog é importante para mim, vocês que ainda têm paciência para me ler são importantes e quero continuar por aqui.)

(I know I'm always late here ... but I'm learning to be okay with it and not take the list of drafted posts as an excuse to procrastinate. This blog is important to me, you who still have the patience to read me are important and I'll just stay here.)


Há já alguns anos que escolho uma palavra para guiar o ano.

E há já alguns anos que invariavelmente essa palavra está ligada a criatividade. É sempre o que eu quero para o centro da minha vida, tirar tantas ideias que tenho na cabeça e executá-las, fazer coisas com as mão, continuar a ser criativa. Eu gosto do meu emprego e tem alguma criatividade mas a minha cabeça não pára e quer sempre mais. Tenho feito algumas coisas mas nunca a um grau que me deixe mesmo feliz. E também não partilho tudo o que faço que é outra coisas que quero mudar. Este ano não é diferente e quero trazer mais trabalhos criativos para os meus dias. Para além disso há outras áreas da vida que quero desenvolver e melhorar, para me sentir melhor, mais equilibrada.

Eu sei que talvez devesse ser menos ambiciosa e certamente mais paciente comigo. Afinal tenho um namorado, um filho pequeno e um trabalho a tempo inteiro. Os dias são cheios e cansativos e o tempo não é elástico. Mas a vida será sempre cheia e desculpas são tão fáceis de arranjar. Este ano escolhi a palavra FOCO/FOCUS exactamente para me lembrar de fazer o máximo do pouco tempo livre que me resta. Focar-me no essencial, organizar prioridades, reduzir o tempo perdido em actividades que não acrescentam valor à minha vida (como facebook, instagram ou a ler a minha lista infinita de blogs) e perder o medo.


Em cada mês quero focar-me num hábito que gostava de mudar e esta é a lista que criei para 2016:

JANEIRO: Exercícios criativos
FEVEREIRO: Alimentação saudável
MARÇO: Exercício
ABRIL: Finanças
MAIO: Escrever cartas e postais
JUNHO: Declutter
JULHO: Meditação
AGOSTO: Desligar
SETEMBRO: Exercícios criativos
OUTUBRO: ?
NOVEMBRO: Um post todos os dias (juntar-me de novo ao NaBloPoMo)
DEZEMBRO: Generosidade

A ideia é ir introduzindo uma pequena mudança por mês e no final do ano ser uma mulher nova! Em termos criativos criei também uma lista de 16 projectos (16 simplesmente porque estamos em 2016) que partilharei num outro post para executar ao longo do ano.

Mas já se está a ver que não vai ser fácil...


Janeiro não foi mau, comecei o ano entusiasmada e juntei-me a um desafio para desenhar todos os dias. Eram só 10 minutos por dia e consegui quase todos os dias! Não pensava muito e foi fácil terminar. A ideia era dar-me uma rotina que depois utilizaria para outros projectos. Não funcionou.
Mas depois em Fevereiro sem o empurrão diário foi mais complicado mas fiz algumas mudanças na minha alimentação e comecei a introduzir mais vegetais por exemplo. Baby steps!
Estamos em Março e tem sido a desgraça total em termos de exercício! Fui duas vezes ao pilates e fiz duas caminhadas de 1 hora. Nem uma corrida!

E projectos criativos... completei 3 o que não parece mal. Mas tenho alguns ambiciosos que estão a custar a mexer.

Como eu disse as desculpas são fáceis, o meu filho esteve doente e as noites ficaram uma desgraça ainda maior que o habitual (nunca dormiu muito bem raça do miúdo!). Mas são demasiadas as noites em que depois do jantar acabo no sofá agarrada ao iphone. Não é muito tempo antes de me deitar e há tanta preguiça de começar algo quando já estou tão cansada...

Parece que a experiência está a ser um falhanço total mas não acho. Já sabia que não ia ser fácil e a verdade é que houve progresso em todas as áreas em que iniciei uma mudança. E o facto de aqui estar a escrever sobre isto e sobre as minhas lutas dá-me uma nova energia para continuar a trabalhar e não me deixar ir. Hoje de manhã li um artigo interessante sobre os efeitos  negativos de passar a vida a imaginar projectos e nunca os concretizar (ai ai tocou tão na minha ferida) que decidi acrescentar uma nova palavra do ano. Quero continuar FOCADA mas agora criar ACÇÃO. Fazer coisas. Concretizá-las!

Estão comigo?





English!

For some years now I've been choosing a word to guide me through the year

And for some years now invariably the word is linked to creativity. It's always what I want for my life, take the ideas from my head and just do them, create things with the hands, continue to be creative. I like my job and it has some creativity but my head does not stop and always wants more. I have done some things but not to a degree that let me really happy. Nor do I share everything I do which is other thing I want to change. This year is no different and I want to put forward more creative works. Furthermore there are other areas of life that want to develop and improve, in order to feel better, more balanced.

I know that maybe I should be less ambitious and certainly more patient with me. After all I have a boyfriend, a young son and a full-time job. The days are full and tiring and time is not elastic. But life will always be full and excuses are so easy to arrange. This year I chose the word FOCUS exactly to remember me to make the most of the little time I have left. Focus on my essentials, organize my priorities, reduce the time wasted on activities that add no value to my life (like facebook, instagram or read my endless list of blogs) and lose the fear.

Each month I want to focus myself on a habit that liked to change and this is the list I created for 2016:

JANUARY: creative exercises
FEBRUARY: Healthy Food
MARCH: Exercise
APRIL: Finance
MAY: Write letters and postcards
JUNE: Declutter
JULY: Meditation
AUGUST: Off
SEPTEMBER: creative exercises
OCTOBER: ?
NOVEMBER: A post every day (joining again NaBloPoMo)
DECEMBER: Generosity

The idea is to introduce a small change each month and then by the end of the year I'll be a new woman! Ahah In creative terms I also made a list of 16 projects (16 simply because we are in 2016) that will share in another post to run through the year.

But I'm already sensing it will not be easy ...

January was not bad, I started the year excited and I joined a challenge to draw every day. It was only 10 minutes a day and did it almost every day! I did not think too much and was easy to finish. The idea was to give me a routine that would fuel me into other projects. It didn't work.
In February without the daily reminder it was more complicated but I did make some changes in my diet and started to introduce more vegetables for example. Baby steps!
We are in March and has been the utter disgrace in terms of exercise! I went twice to pilates and made two 1-hour walks. Didn't go running not even once!

And creative projects... I completed 3 which is not too bad. But I have some ambitious ones that are being difficult to move with.

As I said excuses are easy, my son was sick and the nights became even worse than usual (he was never a great sleeper). But for too many evenings I've just been lazy in the sofa with my phone. It's not a lot of time before I go to bed and I just get lazy....

It seems that the experience is being a total failure but I don't think so. I knew it would not be easy and the truth is that there has been progress in all areas in which started a change. And the fact of being here to write about this and about my struggles gives me new motivation to continue working and not let myself go. This morning I read an interesting article about the negative effects of spending too much time thinking about projects instead of actually doing them (ouch, my soft spot!) I decided to add a new word of the year. I want to continue FOCUSED but now create ACTION. Do things. Make them happen!

Are you with me?

07 March 2016

looking back on 2015

2015 was a weird year, our first complete as parents. Lots of adjustments, lots of joy, love and lots of frustration as well. Below some moments to remember (organised chronologically).

We kicked of the year with a long stay in Portugal since I was on maternity leave and R owned is own company then. It was good to spend some time with family and friends without that constant rush feeling we always have in our visits.
Back in London it was back to the mummy social scene. There is a long stream of activities you can do with the babies here in my neighbourhood and I must have been to all (I even had a calendar to keep me organised!). Meeting groups, singing in libraries, soft play, yoga with babies, fitness in the park with buggies and the list goes on but the best of all was the baby cinema, where you can take your baby to a cinema session and even serve you coffee and cake (well, you pay for it). I owe my sanity to those events and to all the other mothers I've met. It was so important to talk through our struggles with sleep deprivation and adjustment to this new life, looking for a new identity, missing pre-baby life as well while marvelling at the tiny creatures we made. So grateful.

Our old flat, I've spent too many hours in this living room... Miss the south facing large windows that made the flat sun flooded.


By far the best decision of 2015: travelling to the USA with the little one. He was such a trouper! He was about 5-6 months and I think it's an amazing age to travel. I was still breastfeeding and he would endure long hours in the car. Also the joy of seeing old friends again. So so so worth it!

All that sunshine was amazing. We are quite simple travellers and can't really afford luxuries but we always splurge in one hotel per trip: in this one it was the Ace Hotel in Palm Springs. So worth it!

A wonderful highlight, the Eames House - they are so inspiring!

This little chap was of course the center of 2015. Introduction to solid food was a tough one for me - all the food thinking, planning, cooking and restrictions was a bit too much for a non-cooker like me. But like everything else in parenthood, you muddle through it and you conquer a new stage.

Filipe was (and is) my teacher in so many ways. One thing he taught me was the value of perseverance. I remember watching him in awe as he practiced over and over how to roll, how to slide, how to stand up. In this photo you can see how concentrate he is practicing standing in all fours before he started to crawl. It's amazing how babies seem to come with a program and you just see it unfold before your eyes. I remember telling my partner: "we feed him, we love him and watch him grow". So amazing. It's getting a bit more complex these days.

This photo to remember the chaos we have embraced by entering this adventure. And also how incredibly cute he is.


For my birthday I received that lovely Playmobil family and a trip to Margate. 


Some beach time in Portugal over the summer was just perfect. Sun, water and grandparents! We even had a romantic getaway without the kiddo that was amazing. About raising a kid in a foreign country I have come to a conclusion: it's doable but hard. It's hard everywhere I'm sure but I feel a bit jealous of all the grandparents help my friends back in Portugal seem to have. But no complaining, still happy with our choice and our life here.


After summer was a rollercoaster of changes. We moved flats! The little one started in nursery and we both got new jobs! After 10 months of maternity leave I was way more than ready to go back to work. No stay-at-mom material here and that's alright! R's left self employment for new challenges and oh, it was challenging indeed as the new job costed him four hours of daily commute. We patiently fought the new adjustments and create a sort of new routine.



And then he was ONE and growing up so quickly. So much love.

Almost like full circle the end of year found us back in Portugal for Christmas, more at ease with the parenting gig but exhausted and excited for a new start in a new year.



30 January 2016

around here - december 2015


Dezembro foi um mês cheio como se espera na vida do emigrante! Mesmo que não passemos o natal em Londres, a nossa casa engalanou-se com árvore, luzes e bolas e contrariamente ao que eu esperava o Filipe não ligou nenhuma. Para o ano!

December was a busy month as you would expect in an emigrant's life! Even if we do not spend Christmas in London, we brought home a tree, lights and decoration but contrary to what I expected Philip did not care at all. Next year!

Num dia em que a creche esteve fechada, veio visitar-me ao trabalho.

On a day when the nursery was closed, he came to visit me at work.


Um dia normal no trabalho (cof cof)... visitar a futura sede da Google UK! Vistas panorâmicas dos últimos andares.

Another day at work (cof cof)... visiting Google UK future offices! Panoramic views from the top floors.

E este menino já anda pela rua! 

And we're off walking on the street!

Excelente exposição de Michael Wolf (conhecido por Tokyo Compression e Architecture of Density) - "Informal Arrangements" sobre detalhes do dia-a-dia em Hong Kong! Fez-me ter saudades do Japão e agora quero visitar Hong Kong

Excellent exhibition of Michael Wolf (well known for Tokyo Compression and Architecture of Density) -"Informal Arrangements" on daily life details in Hong Kong! It made me miss having Japan and now want to visit Hong Kong.

E por aqui o dia-a-dia está cada vez mais cheio de abraços e beijinhos. 

And around here daily life is increasingly full of hugs and kisses.

E continua cheio de livros! Sem dúvida o brinquedo preferido dele.

And still full of books! Undoubtedly his favorite toy.


Uns dias antes do Natal voámos para Lisboa e lá foi um corropio de família e amigos! Seja lá quanto tempo for é sempre pouco para ver toda a gente e fazermos tudo o que queremos fazer. Mesmo assim foram bons dias relaxados com idas à praia e tudo. Na noite de natal o miúdo divertiu-se a entregar prendas a todos mas sem perceber bem a ideia. Para o ano! :)

A few days before Christmas we flew to Lisbon and we had a wonderful time with family and friends! However time is never enough to see everybody and do everything we want to. Still we had some relaxed days even with trips to the beach. On Christmas eve the kid was amused to delivering gifts to everyone but didn't really get the idea. Next year! :)


A cadela que enfeitiçou o Filipe. Desde então está obcecado por cães! Woof woof!

The dog who bewitched Filipe. Since then he is obsessed with dogs! Woof woof!


Com o primo na praia. Dias lindos de Inverno.

With his cousin at the beach. Beautiful winter days.

No último dia do ano regressámos a casa em Londres, um pouco descansados e cheios de vontade de começar um novo ano, fresquinho e cheio de páginas em branco para serem preenchidas! Feliz 2016 amigos!

On the last day of the year we came back home in London, a bit rested and excited to start a new year, fresh and full of blank pages to be filled! Happy 2016 friends!

31 December 2015

52/52 extra



15 meses: no último dia de 2015. de regresso a casa em londres. a brincar às escondidas no aeroporto e aquele brilho nos olhos!

15 months: on the last day of 2015. flying back home to London. playing hide and seek at the airport and that spark in his eyes!


E assim termina este projecto meus amigos, um ano inteiro de Filipe! É inacreditável como ele está diferente do início deste ano. Fico feliz por ter captado e compilado tantas imagens, algumas  de celebrações especiais, outras de simples momentos rotineiros, todas tentando captar este tempo fugaz... Criar um filho é um trabalho muito muito exigente mas é uma alegria tão grande vê-lo crescer! E tenho que admitir, como nunca esperei!
Hesitei se sim se não mas não vou continuar este projecto durante este ano. Sei que vou continuar a tirar centenas de fotos durante 2016 e certamente o Filipe fará parte da série "around here" mas não vou partilhá-las semanalmente.

And this is it my friends, a whole year of Filipe! It's mind blowing to see how different he is from early this year. I'm so happy to have captured and compiled so many beautiful photographs, some special milestones, other simply routine moments, all capturing this fleeting time... It's the most demanding job to raise a child but such a joy to see him grow.
I hesitated but I won't be continuing this project in 2016. I know will continue to take hundreds of pictures in 2016 and Filipe will surely appear in my "around here" posts but I won't be sharing photos weekly. 

27 December 2015

52/52



1 ano e 3 meses: natal em família em portugal e uma nova amiga, a cadela pastor-alemão dos meus cunhados. um misto de fascínio e respeito, e não a largava todo o dia.

1 year and 3 months: christmas with family in portugal and a new friend, my in-laws german shepard. a mix of obsession and respect, and always hovering around her.

The 52 Project: a portrait of my son, once a week, every week, in 2015. Inspired by Jody.